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"The darkest hour is just before the light."
Poetic.
I loved many times in my life…
The last one was the worst.
The agony cut like a knife.
So…
Once upon a time…
February 2022.
“Sorrowful wreck of a man.”
She dumped me.
Once.
Twice.
Living after a break up is like…
Every action is a meaningless existence.
There is no moment of peace…
She is all-encompassing.
Present in every situation.
The phone rings or a text…
Faint hope it’s her.
No.
You send the last text…
“Happy Valentine's Day.”
Heart emoji included.
Her answer…
“Happy Valentine's Day.”
No heart…
A smiley face.
I know. I'm an idiot.
Love is lunacy…
I'm grateful forever.
Her leaving left me empty.
No direction to go.
Human nature is to look for an escape…
I dived into the world of self-improvement.
"Reading my way out of pain."
Futile.
The thing about emotional pain is…
You can't outrun it.
You can't read your way out of it.
You can't escape it.
Only way is…
Feeling it.
Actually…
There was one book.
Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle.
The core idea…
"True peace and fulfillment come from living fully in the present, not dwelling on past regrets or future worries."
10 years before I read the book.
Similar situation.
“Lying in bed in the late hours of the night.”
Her face in my mind.
Intense focus on the present moment.
I found a release.
New idea.
Create something from your pain.
Just an idea…
Vague.
The aha moment…
You have it.
I have it.
Clarity…
No.
Starting to act on your ideas.
It will lead you somewhere.
I found my way to the weird self-improvement space.
Found Dan Koe.
Found Twitter.
She left me broken…
Unhappy and miserable.
You see, my friend.
I'm grateful.
It takes a long time to realize…
How truly miserable you are.
Only after you give up everything…
Can you begin…
To find a way to be happy.
There you go.
Something different next time.
Thank you for reading.
See you next Sunday.
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